Up in the Air….

By Caroline Dobbins

This photo illustrates how I feel I the city sometimes…so small yet on top of the world

So its been an interesting few days since I last posted.  “Interesting” doesn’t mean “bad” it just means interesting.  I feel like I’ve done a lot of trying to figure things out while just getting more and more confused. I came to Philly with the mindset that I was going to learn something about myself and my future career path and as time goes by I just feel myself getting more confused.

I go to my internship 4 days a week,  I learn new things but still have trouble grasping the concept of marketing and what I might want to pursue as a career.  I am struggling with how to create opportunity for myself.  I have spoken with my supervisor and he says that I need to be more proactive and creative, understand the business more and immerse myself in what the business does. I am finding this extremely hard.  It is something that I thought I could do but now find that I’m really struggling.  I want to make the most out of my remaining time at my internship so I guess I’ve got to learn fast!  I may not leave my internship [with an advertising, marketing web design firm] in December knowing much more about my personal path in the business world but I think I’ll know much more about who I am as a worker and a learner.

The remaining day of the week I attend my seminar class Education and Difference at work and again I find myself stretching boundaries and discovering things that I did not know that I had a passion or understanding for.  Last Thursday as a class we were able to spend time in the classroom of an urban neighborhood school and it took me only moment to start questioning… Am I choosing the right career path?  I enjoy children so much,  I enjoy their innocence, their willingness to learn and sincerity towards life.  I’m by no means saying that I want to switch career paths now but my experience in the classroom helped to remind me that I need to stay involved with volunteering with children and helping schools as much as possible.

I’m not going to finish my post with the things that I’ve learned this time because I think this blog post can show you what I’ve learned, what I want to learn and what I’m struggling to learn.  One thing I do know for sure is that in 8 very short weeks, I will be leaving this city with a heavy heart because I know by then I will be a better person because I took 16 weeks to discover who I am, what I want to do and where I fit in the crazy thing called life.

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